The oddest day.

mssinglemama — Wed, 23 Jul 2008 03:42:45 +0000

You know those days when everything is off by a centimeter or an inch or a nanosecond. Today was one of those days. All clouded by the letter I wrote last night and then the dream that followed.

1. The dream. I was in love with Britney Spears’ brother. She doesn’t have a brother though. She was the symbol, the omen – the red flag. But she died in the dream. So the red flag was gone and it was just me and him. Tall, dark, handsome, big eyes. Benjamin woke up before I could finish…so a cliff hanger started my day and I felt like I’d landed in the Twilight Zone.

2. Match.com. I get a free account. They’re giving me one. The e-mail came this morning. Weird. Is he on there? Why do I care? I’ll try it out.

3. The man in the shop. Benjamin and I dropped the car off for a long overdue oil change. The man in the shop looked at my bare left ring finger and for the first time I encountered one of those guys who thinks single moms are “easy.” But I wasn’t in a bar and I wasn’t drunk so I was just offended and mildly creeped out. He knows my address. They take your address for some reason. I’m becoming more paranoid now that I’m a mother and it just gets worse as he gets older and more vulnerable to not just the physical, but the emotional.

4. Asshole in the street. Benjamin and I had to walk home from the car shop. And as we were crossing a busy street (I had him in my arms) the walk sign switched to the flashing red hand. Then a driver, turning left through our cross walk rolled down his window and said, “It says no walking, Asshole.”

And yes, I said HIS window. A man called Benjamin and I an Asshole. Well, I guess he just called me an Asshole but my child heard it. I stopped dead in my tracks (the light was red I was safe) spun my body around and caught the driver’s eye just in time to throw him a glare that has made grown men shudder before. I didn’t even need to say a word…and Benjamin was none the wiser. I spent the rest of the walk home wondering what in the hell is wrong with this world while I clutched Benjamin’s tiny little hand.

5. Benjamin pooped in the bath. Yep. First time ever. It was horrible. That’s all I can really say about that. Potty training casualty or bad mommy? Not really sure. Either way it sucked. I didn’t tell him that though. Didn’t want to make him feel guilty. You only get to smear poop on the walls of a shower once in your life, right? Why ruin it for him?

6. YouTube loves us. Tonight I had three friend or subscription requests in my YouTube account. Three may not sound like a lot to you … but by YouTube standards (for me anyway) that was pretty cool. Then I checked out the stats on Morgan and I’s Single Mom Dating video – it’s had over 700 collective views. One of my friend requests was from a single mom who made a YouTube video calling out her child’s dead beat father. Watch it here.

7. I skipped Must Love Kids. Too busy. How will the show make it if single moms are too busy to watch it? Damn. I loved the first episode though.

8. Benjamin is in my bed. He wanted to sleep there tonight. I let him because his tooth is hurting him. Damn it. It will probably be pulled Thursday (we have a dentist appointment anyway). No front teeth for Benjamin until he’s what 5 or 6 – maybe even 8. I am going to take a lot of pictures tomorrow. We had our first real conversation tonight. We talked about Elephants, Monkeys and Daddys. What do you tell a 2.4 year old when he asks where his daddy is? Then he pretended to tuck me into bed and all of that Daddy talk seemed utterly pointless.

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The oddest day.