From the category archives:

The Father (My Ex)

The man in the kitchen.

July 20, 2008

My ex-husband has a little problem. He won’t let his girlfriend’s 7-year-old son call him Dad. As a result, our son, who he has for just 36 hours a week is now calling him by his first name too. He’s mimicking his psuedo step-brother. So what’s a jerky ex-husband to do? “Why don’t you just let [...]

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Obama Calls Out Dead Beat Dads

June 16, 2008

During a powerful Father’s Day speech Barack Obama called out dead beat dads and heralded us single moms for all of our hard work. I love this man, I truly do. Raised by a single mother, I expect Obama will be very passionate on single parent issues if elected. On Friday he announced he would [...]

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The Ex Factor

March 19, 2008

You rarely hear mention of him on my blog. Maybe because it usually breaks my heart to write about it. Maybe because I don’t want Benjamin to read this someday and think his father’s a lousy (enter superlative of your choice here). But now that Benjamin’s two…soon there will be questions which means Mommy needs [...]

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She’s pregnant. Should she tell the father?

March 1, 2008

It’s a question so perplexing they’ve made movies about it … most recently “Knocked Up,” which I think is completely unrealistic. Laughable really. What are the odds that a man who you’re not even in love with would miraculously become your knight in shining armor? If the main character would have ended up alone – would that really have been such a tragic ending? On the contrary, I think it would have been a story of strength. The strength to realize that staying with someone just because you’re pregnant may actually be the wrong one.
Claudia just commented on my “I LOVE Being a Single Mom” post with this question:

“Does anyone on this site have the issue of contemplating whether to tell the father of the baby that you are expecting? I am in that situation right now and am torn whether to tell him.

In the end this is a very selfish society, mostly men’s selfishness and no consideration for the feelings of anyone. Very controlling, but if I do tell the father, it will be me controlling the situation. His excuse for not being with me, dating, bars, meeting friends and family has been that he has to take care of things such as college and his new career. So I would be causing him more stress and things to worry about. Or would I? Would he be so selfish that he as some men never contact me nor the child? Should I care what he thinks?”

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He’s back.

January 2, 2008

Yesterday morning Benjamin’s father picked him up for his first overnight at Daddy’s in nearly two years. I kept myself busy all day shopping with my best friend. We are both single mothers and spent nearly three hours in one store! Shopping with no kids is truly a luxury. I came home to my empty apartment and couldn’t bear the loud silence. I am never, ever home without him here. I didn’t know what to do so I just tried to take a quick nap. I couldn’t sleep and just laid there thinking about how lonely and miserable my life would be without Benjamin. I remind myself of this every day but having 36 hours of child-free time made it really sink in.

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On sharing a child.

December 31, 2007

After nearly two years my son’s father has taken him for his 36 hours of visitation. (Usually he watches him at my place) Right now there’s a pit in my stomach. Not of fear. I know he will take care of him…he is after all a good father and he does love his son more [...]

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His father wants to take him…I’m freaking out.

December 14, 2007

When I told my now ex-husband I was leaving him the first thing he argued about was the laptop computer. Then the video camera. Anything of monetary value. But, not once, not once did he fight for our son. I wanted him to. It got to the point that his complete apathy to the issue was actually a little shocking. Why wasn’t he worried about not seeing Benjamin? It’s been two years. Since then he has come only during his 36 hours of visitation. No more, no less. And he has always come to us – staying in our house.

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Why I am a single mother.

December 2, 2007

The first time I thought of leaving my ex-husband I was just 8 weeks pregnant. He was unemployed again and spent his days parked on the couch without a care or worry. “I’ll get a job when I need to, just stop to talk,” he would say in his thick french accent that was no longer sexy, now it was just annoying. Then there was also his complete unwillingness to improve our relationship. But instead of leaving him, I kicked him out.

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Daddy is coming back.

December 2, 2007

Well, it’s been six weeks since his car broke down. He called yesterday – telling me he’s 90% sure he’ll be here Monday and Tuesday to watch Benjamin. I’m actually nervous about leaving him alone with his own father. Isn’t that strange? It’s just that it’s been so long since they’ve spent time together. But, this is good. A boy does need his father and despite his complete irresponsibility the Ex has, with the exception of the last six weeks, been here every week since the divorce.

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Cigarrettes, men and some major trust issues.

November 13, 2007

My new boyfriend and I decided to quit smoking – together. It’s the first time I’ve done something together, as a couple in years. Well, if you count my divorce, it’s been nearly a year. Knowing Saturday night was going to be a baby-free all-nighter we pick Sunday to go cold turkey. I’m scared. Scared to quit smoking and scared to enter into a verbal contract with someone – a commitment.

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