From the category archives:

The Father (My Ex)

Something Missing

August 28, 2010

I have lost myself again. I am 10 pages deep into a journal from the 11th grade. I snap out of my self-induced memory trip, thank the cosmos for letting me survive high school, and stuff the journal tightly into the box. It fits perfectly next to the picture of my sister and I in […]

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October 19, 2009

We are in the swell, waiting for the wave to push us onto the beach. In a few weeks Benjamin will be starting at his big boy private Montessori school while Mommy goes off to work again. And something else is changing. Benjamin’s father won’t be here this week or the next. His Canadian passport […]

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The Trip Story: Part 3

August 23, 2009

John Bear jumped out of bed at 7:00 am to feed Fiesta Dave’s meter. We’d parked in a haze of exhaustion.  After spending the entire day in New York City we hit a monstrous traffic jam on the way into Philadelphia. Between reading our iPhone maps and asking cab drivers which turn to take next […]

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The wow factor.

April 26, 2009

There are few material things that ever really wow me.  Here are two. Benjamin’s new “water boots”. For the first time in three years Benjamin’s father bought him a pair of shoes. He had no way of knowing this but I’ve been trying to find a cool pair of puddle stomping boots for months. But […]

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The Easter Man

April 12, 2009

My son can’t wait to be a man.  You don’t have to know him very well to instantly see that inside of this little three-year-old is a strong, tough guy waiting to come out and do man things all day. Take my Uncle Dennis’ truck for example. There is no place on Earth Benjamin would […]

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Father Figure

April 8, 2009

Maybe I gave up. Maybe I just didn’t want to hear another “I can’t” or “I’ll try” – each one cutting a bit deeper than the last. But somewhere along the way I just stopped. I stopped asking my ex-husband to spend more time – time outside of his 36 hours a week – with […]

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My imaginary husband

April 6, 2009

It’s been so long since I’ve had a husband, or even a steady boyfriend for that matter, that I now can only imagine what it would be like. There’s nothing tangible left, not even an old pair of boxer shorts. Just pictures like this one. At first, when Benjamin was just four-months-old, the memories of […]

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March 11, 2009

Benjamin is catching on to the fact that there is no man in this house. And it’s hard. I didn’t think it would be so difficult to hear them: “Mommy, is Daddy working?” “Yes, baby, he’s working but he misses you.” and the new one… “Mommy, do you have a daddy?” “No. Not anymore.” “Where […]

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No Show

February 10, 2009

I’m a single mom, dating, and again my ex-husband is a no show. But this time it’s on date night. Yikes! Being a single mom is so hard sometimes.

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Bye, Bye Daddy?

January 17, 2009

“I talked to someone who works with your ex’s girlfriend,” my friend said. “Really? And?” “She is acting all excited saying he bought a new car and they are all moving to Canada – together.” My face lit up and then crumbled all at once. Certainly, it must have. I can’t hide anything. It’s annoying. […]

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