From the category archives:

Striking thoughts

And then he sings…

February 2, 2012

So, when he’s not working or chasing his kids around, Mr. Mister (or Seth, as you’ll find out in this video) is a singer/songwriter. He wrote this song during his separation. And I think, all of us single parents – moms and dads – can relate. I had to share and took this video during […]

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Hindsight

September 7, 2009

“If everything works out with John, Benjamin won’t know a time when he wasn’t around.” As my therapist’s words sink in the last three years of my life flash through my mind; from the beginning when I packed everything up and moved into my mother’s, to the quiet nights at her house in the woods […]

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The other side

September 3, 2009

I spotted my first fallen leaves in the grass of the baseball diamond near my post office last Thursday. The bag over my shoulder was bursting with little brown packages. Each containing a silver or bronze new leaf necklace destined for one of you. I make this walk to the post office, with Murphy in […]

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My First Time

August 2, 2009

I met the first boy who would break my heart at a party. My legs were crossed and I had a pillow on my lap, my back leaning into the corner of the sofa. Working three jobs over my summer break between my freshman and sophomore years of college I liked this spot in the […]

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On quitting your day job.

May 31, 2009

This morning I woke up before Benjamin, wondering… The sun light fell on my face, peeking through my dark bamboo blinds – my blinds in my room. I enjoyed the silence and basked in the thought that tomorrow I would be reporting to myself, no one else. Then I wondered how I got here. I […]

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Memories

March 3, 2009

My first memory is of toddling behind my mother along a dark hiking trail somewhere out West.  I must have been about Benjamin’s age. A few hours earlier we had all split up. My father and some of my other siblings stayed on top of the trail while my mom and the rest of us […]

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The “wrong” Wal-Mart

February 24, 2009

“Waste some money on this honey,” a man said as I whisked through the automatic doors on a mission to find Benjamin plane toys and a new car seat. His buddy laughed. “Were they just talking to me?” I asked myself silently. Then I looked up and around and I realized I’d just walked into […]

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Moral Dilemma

February 23, 2009

What happened: Event 1: Benjamin and I are invited to a baptism. It’s his first time in a church. I’m worried we will spontaneously combust upon entering. Unfortunately, we don’t. Event 2: Shortly after the baptism begins and at the most inopportune moment, Benjamin runs on a church pew in his new and very loud […]

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Almost there…

February 19, 2009

I passed the 72 hour mark today. I know it’s far from over. But I have to do this for Benjamin and for myself. I have no excuses anymore. Life is easy now compared to then. The road is smooth and there’s not much to fear on the other side. I just wish I had […]

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Oh snap. This is hard.

February 18, 2009

I haven’t had a cigarette in 48 hours. Feel free to cheer me on. I need it. Because on the inside this is how I feel: Also on my list of shit that’s really messing with me: Benjamin is sick as hell. He’s had a fever for three days. Now I’m feeling sick. I had […]

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