Shameless

by mssinglemama on October 14, 2009

I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

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It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

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that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

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After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

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storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

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That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

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And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

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Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet even began to feel like a burden.

Then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse because passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My big news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

To our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet even began to feel like a burden.

Then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse because passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My big news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

To our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet even began to feel like a burden.

Then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse because passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My big news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

To our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
I have spent the entire afternoon drafting this post, deleting it and then writing it again. I can’t find the words so I am just going to tell you… last week I accepted an offer to go back to work full-time.

I would explain but I deleted it all.

This is just such a tremendously personal decision. The men in my life have come and gone and eventually so will Benjamin, but the one thing that has and always will be a part of me is my career and my education. I tried staying and working at home and now I know that I am just not cut out for it… in the end I was spending less time with Benjamin not more, the stress and pressures of making it work were spilling into my relationship with John and this blog, my favorite thing on the planet, even began to feel like a burden.

And then a job offer came from a company moving into the future of new media and led by a creative director who has a vision, clear direction and a tremendous amount of passion. I couldn’t refuse as passing up this kind of an opportunity felt like it would be a huge mistake.

So there it is. My news.

The day I found out I took Benjamin to visit the best Montessori school in the city and signed him up. Miraculously, they have openings and by enrolling him there I have realized a dream I never thought possible. I will be able to provide him with an education, to give him something no one will ever be able to take away.

Next up… a new apartment or maybe a house?

To all of you who held me up and carried me through the last four months of this adventure by purchasing my eBook and my New Leaf necklaces, thank you from the bottom of my heart – and don’t worry, I’m not going anywhere…

now, back to blogging about the fun stuff!

——

Knowing my days of freedom were numbered, Benjamin and I jumped in the car last week and drove seven hours to see his Aunt Anna and Uncle Ryan in Charlottesville, Virgnia.

IMG_1870

It was here, in Thomas Jefferson’s treasured town

IMG_1844

that Sir Benjamin took his first real poop on the potty. The bribe? An orange cape and a sword.

IMG_1913

After spending an entire day terrorizing the people of Charlottesville

IMG_1905

storming the walls of their art centers

IMG_1930defeating their playground designed for big kids

IMG_1941

and making just about everyone we saw smile, Sir Benjamin spent the night with Uncle Ryan while Anna and I went shopping. On Saturday morning we headed out into the country for some hay bail jumping

IMG_1981

That turned into hay bail wrestling.

IMG_1990

Some animal petting

IMG_2022

That turned into camera training. This is one of Benjamin’s first pictures…

IMG_2077

And then it was my turn to get a few of Benjamin who now loves making funny faces at the camera.

IMG_2089

And then we nearly lost ourselves in the corn maze.

IMG_2146

Finally, a few days and many more little adventures later we were home.

IMG_2224

In our little big city that has given us both everything we could ever dream of having.

Thanks to all of you…
One of you (thank you!) nominated me for a Bump Mommy Award for Best Single Mama Blogger.

And you know I totally want to win.

Vote for me (Ms. Single Mama – Option #3)  here and help me erase the memory of my classmates throwing Reeses Peanut Butter cups in my face during my losing speech for class scribe in the sixth grade.

It went down like this.

I stayed up late the night before meticulously crafting tiny notes that read “Vote for Alaina for Class Scribe.” Then I snuck into the classroom early that morning and left the notes and one Reeses Peanut Butter Cup on each desk. During my speech one of them accused me of bribery then they all started throwing the candy at me. I was forever scarred and the only thing I won that day was the title of Class Nerd.

And now you know why, to this day, if another kid so much as looks at Benjamin funny I get all defensive and want to kick their little pint sized butt.

So go vote for a girl (who clearly has issues) because she likes to win things.

P.S. Make sure you are voting for “Ms. Single Mama”.

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Speaking of winning, here are the winners to all of my contests I have out there:

Ms. Single Mama Uncensored Winners from the AP Lit post: June’Bug, Gershtown, and Ali

and the big winner of the Silver New Leaf Necklace Set and book is: Lori (she’s been e-mailed if there were two of you).

Thanks so much everyone!

xoxo

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