Thanks

Enjoy your break from the blogging world, we will all be here when you return!
I “heart” you.

Not only was I a single mother, but I was a mother and father 100% all these years because her father didn’t want to know her. My parent’s sent me to an unwed mother’s home far away to place my child for adoption, but I kept her instead. I contacted him twice after she was born. My daughter was 5 years old the last time I spoke to her dad on the phone. When I asked him if he would like to talk to her, he said, “give me a break.” I was devastated AGAIN, but after that night, I finally let it go. 5 years of pining over him, it was time to do just that, LET IT GO.

Then last month she found him on Facebook and wrote a letter. He and his family responded and have welcomed her with open arms. They flew her out and is with them as I write this. Needless to say, it’s been a very hard week for me for so many reasons. I am glad she found him and is getting the love from him she always wanted, but she is all I have. I got used to it being just the two of us. I struggled and sacrificed so much. I tried the dating thing a lot, but that has its complications when you are a single parent. I even gave up sex 14 or 15 years ago? Heck, I almost forget. People are shocked when I tell them this because of how good I used to look. But to me, dating and all that went with it became a hassle, and I wanted to protect my kid. It’s nice when women can marry great men who become wonderful father figures, but it just wasn’t meant to be for me.

It bothers me that with all my struggles and sacrifices, her father has had a long marriage, great kids, and great job stability. Life just doesn’t make sense.

I hope life is different for you, and BETTER! I just stumbled across your blog in some desperate attempt to find anyone who can relate to what I am going through now. Every single mom situation is different in many ways, but there will always be a certain camaraderie among single moms. They are all heroes in my eyes!