by mssinglemama on April 13, 2009

Overdue for some relief, I left Benjamin with my mom last night. 

This morning when I finally crawled out bed, trying to hang on to the memories of that dream, I had no idea where the day would take me.

I thought I may be hanging out with one guy but I got a text from another inviting me to a concert by “that guy from Smog.” 

Are you kidding? 

I’ll be there.

And then I was. 


Standing within a few inches of a small stage against one wall of a record store on campus, I couldn’t help but take in the scenery.


Then he walked by me, brushing my shoulder before sitting down to tune his guitar. 


A few minutes later he started singing


the songs from his new, and I believe, his first solo album.

I started out in search of ordinary things 

How much of a tree bends in the wind

I started telling the story without knowing the end

I used to be darker

Then I got lighter

Then I got dark again

Something too big to be seen was passing over and over me. 

I started running when concrete turned to sand

I started running when things didn’t pan out as planned

In case things go poorly and I not return

Remember the good things I done

or done me in.


I have two more nights without Benjamin. I’m trying to remember the last time this happened — and I can’t. In case things go poorly, remember the good things I’ve been. 

This is fun. 

I’m not sure tomorrow can top tonight but I’ll take my chances.

{ 16 comments… read them below or add one }

MindyMom April 14, 2009 at 4:53 am

Shall this be known as the tequilla post? I like it.


Steve Odom April 14, 2009 at 11:28 am

First time commenter, long-time reader. This is actually Bill Callahan's second album. His first solo album came out not too long ago, Woke on a Whaleheart. Here's "Sycamore" from that album. I love this song because it seems about a young boy growing up.

But here's my favorite song he's done recently:



mssinglemama April 14, 2009 at 1:19 pm

Thank you so much for this. I'm a new fan of Smog thanks to that Matt (Logelin) guy.


mssinglemama April 14, 2009 at 1:18 pm

Definitely. Was quite tipsy when I wrote it… but the grave yard of a comment section tells me it may be creeping everyone out. ; )


Tina April 14, 2009 at 1:38 pm

"I started telling the story without knowing the end."
I love the story you are telling here, Ms. Single Mama.
Cool pics as well.
And thanks for introducing Matt Longelin's site to me. I saw him on Oprah yesterday; he did a great job, yet another important story to tell.


Bill April 14, 2009 at 1:43 pm

Instead of drunk dialing, you are drunk blogging!! Nice post either way. Weird dream…


TsQuest April 14, 2009 at 1:48 pm

Ha! Drunk blogging. (And I saw your tweet too late but I too was rooting for Tequila!)

What a fun evening. Those lyrics are inspiring. Glad to see you're enjoying yourself! Go girl!


ModernSingleMomma April 14, 2009 at 2:38 pm

I couldn't for the life of me figure out if this was a dream or real life…i do like your drunk writing though. And the pictures helped confirm for me it was indeed reality…not a figment of your (or my) imagination.



lilmissbridget April 14, 2009 at 3:33 pm

Hi Alaina,
Must be crazy for you to have a break from the kiddo! But distance always makes you appreciate people more! I'm glad to see you are having fun! ENJOY it! Get a mani/pedi. Go shopping. Have fun!



Nakia April 14, 2009 at 4:01 pm

The drunk writing was awesome! I saw your tweet buy by the time I was getting ready to reply, I think you'd already taken the shot.


above average joe April 14, 2009 at 4:37 pm

Good for you. Enjoy the rest of your free nights.


Hanna April 14, 2009 at 7:28 pm

Wow this is a drunk post? Coulda fooled me. Dreams and music. Reminds me of my childhood among the hippies.


Nydia April 14, 2009 at 11:04 pm


Trippy …

Cool …


newsinglemama April 14, 2009 at 11:25 pm

great post!
enjoy your freedom from the little one, you deserve it mama!


Janet April 15, 2009 at 12:32 am

Love this post. The whole thing has a dream-like quality.

Drunk blogging rocks. 😉


mssinglemama April 15, 2009 at 2:29 am

Yes, it does.

; )


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