From the monthly archives:

February 2009

Neither here, nor there.

February 26, 2009

I’m not sure where this little vacation will take us. But our much needed reprieve from life will be just in time to catch the Joshua trees blooming. Spring hits early there. The Joshua Tree National Park lies directly in the path of two merging deserts. One more lush and green, where the Joshua trees [...]

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The “wrong” Wal-Mart

February 24, 2009

“Waste some money on this honey,” a man said as I whisked through the automatic doors on a mission to find Benjamin plane toys and a new car seat. His buddy laughed. “Were they just talking to me?” I asked myself silently. Then I looked up and around and I realized I’d just walked into [...]

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Moral Dilemma

February 23, 2009

What happened: Event 1: Benjamin and I are invited to a baptism. It’s his first time in a church. I’m worried we will spontaneously combust upon entering. Unfortunately, we don’t. Event 2: Shortly after the baptism begins and at the most inopportune moment, Benjamin runs on a church pew in his new and very loud [...]

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Old habits.

February 22, 2009

They die hard. Still haven’t had a cigarette. Went through some major withdrawal attacks this weekend but Morgan was there to cheer me on… and I made it. This is hard though. I miss them already. Those evil little cancer sticks. I’m not sure if I can do this. I’m just not. But I know [...]

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Toxic Friends

February 20, 2009

Have you seen the new Momversation series? I love these videos. And this question really hit home for me. I have had quite a few toxic friendships in my days and yes, breaking up with a woman is a helluva lot harder than dumping a dude. Check this out. Do you have toxic friendships? It’s [...]

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Almost there…

February 19, 2009

I passed the 72 hour mark today. I know it’s far from over. But I have to do this for Benjamin and for myself. I have no excuses anymore. Life is easy now compared to then. The road is smooth and there’s not much to fear on the other side. I just wish I had [...]

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Oh snap. This is hard.

February 18, 2009

I haven’t had a cigarette in 48 hours. Feel free to cheer me on. I need it. Because on the inside this is how I feel: Also on my list of shit that’s really messing with me: Benjamin is sick as hell. He’s had a fever for three days. Now I’m feeling sick. I had [...]

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A reminder and a secret.

February 16, 2009

On Valentine’s Day I went out with my single friends. The bar was packed. After a toast to being single I wandered off, as I tend to do in new bars. I like to just be alone sometimes. But I couldn’t find a second to myself. There were men everywhere. In fact, the place was [...]

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Pardon the Blog Interruption

February 15, 2009

But my kid is a fricking stud muffin. I’m sorry. I just can’t take it. Would you look at that face? He’s going to be a heart breaker. But he will not be a bad boy, I’ll be sure of that. —- If my little soon to be three-year-old can haul heavy wood down stairs [...]

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